I Have No Health

I reached out for the fork at once.

A plate of fruits that Sona had cut into bite-size pieces was placed in front of me by him.

“Is this for today?”

“……”

“It seems normal so just tell me.
It’s not like it’s an intestine or anything like that.”

He didn’t tell Nineina what it was despite her persuasion.

“It looks like a peach………… It’s an ordinary fruit, isn’t it?”

“It’s good for your body.”

“………….All right.
So it’s good for my health.”

Without questioning further, I chewed the fruit slowly.

Even if I lightly munched on it with my front teeth, it crumbled right away.

‘Delicious!’

It was so sweet.
It’s been a long time since I’ve eaten a sweet delicacy so I chewed it faster.

It isn’t good to take a lot at once and swallow it harshly, so I cut them into further small pieces with my teeth.

Nom.
Nom.
I chewed as hard as I could, but I couldn’t stop feeling a gaze from my side.

He was staring at my lips.

“Do you want to eat too, Caesar?”

I was a little embarrassed because I felt like I was the only one who ate so inappropriately.

I gulped down what I was chewing and asked once more.

“It’s untouched because I ate it with a fork.
Would you like to eat one?”

“……..Please eat a lot.”

What is it? He seemed to have something to say to me.

I felt as restless as someone who was nervous.

The eyes that were rolling here and there were fixed on my hand.

“Are you going to keep holding on to that letter?”

“Ah…………”

I thought I looked pretty casual, but my hands were crushing Rubenio’s letter.

The fork I was holding fell helplessly.

“I’m going to read it after I finish eating.”

I devoted myself to finishing the fruit again.

Caesar’s fingertips rubbed the inside of the glove.

If he hadn’t put on his gloves, his fingertips might have dug into the palm of his hand.

“You’ve been weird ever since.
What’s wrong?”

He stared at me in the sunlight.

“I remember…..….”

“What?”

“No.
Hurry up and eat.”

There was something bothering him, but I figured that he wouldn’t tell me until I finished eating.

After chewing for a while, I put the fork down and the light reflected from the metal spread across Caesar’s dark and dull face.

Whoa! How dazzling!

I couldn’t get used to Caesar with the vitality of spring sunshine.

I slightly covered my face with one hand while he swiped the plate away and walked over.

“Did you enjoy your meal?”

“…..?”

As far as I remember, it’s the first time he asked something like this.

“Yeah.
It was delicious.”

“That’s a relief.”

“……?”

“I chose it after much consideration.”

He took credit for it in a dry tone.

‘What’s up with him?’

Nineina’s head tilted at his unusual behavior.

I’m not sure if this comparison is fitting, but he was exactly like a courting beast.

A beast that puts down delicious food and waits for the answer it wants.

“What… Is there anything you want?”

I asked in confusion at the thought that came to mind.

It couldn’t have been true, but the analogy I came up with seemed just right.

“Then please answer my question.”

Caesar’s eyes lit up and said.

If there was power in his gaze, he would have already pierced and tore me to pieces.

“…….What’s the question?”

It was very burdensome.

He approached me and lowered his head, putting his arms forward.

“Do you know Leonos?”

The distance was too close.
Like lovers right before a kiss.

The look on Caesar’s face in front of my nose made me slightly nervous.

This is because he suddenly came close, ignoring the distance that strangers should follow.

My heart trembled faintly at the unexpected invasion.

Fear or whatever was a perfectly natural reaction.

In the silence that followed, his black eyebrows trembled sorrowfully and begged.

Hurry up and answer me.

“…………Let’s back up for now.
I feel like our lips are going to touch as I speak.”

I said, slightly moving my butt away.

“Ah……”

However, Caesar’s behavior was not quite clear.

He should’ve stared at me with a disgusted look on his face and avoided me, but that wasn’t the case.

That wasn’t the only thing.

He followed after me, maintaining a strange distance.

It took me quite some time to realize what he was saying and get back on track.

The existence of ‘Leonos’ seemed very important to Caesar.

“I’ve never heard of that name.”

But what I don’t know isn’t everything I know.
(TL/N: Since our current FL doesn’t remember the original Nineina’s memories.)

I’ve thought about it, but it’s the first time I’ve ever heard the name Leonos.

“Is that so?”

Returning to his dull eyes, he seemed to expect no more.

“Are there any other features? I can’t tell just by hearing the name.”

I couldn’t remember all the names of the characters in the book, but I could widen the range if he included their characteristics.

There must be a reason why he asked and if possible, I wanted to find out.

“Features… are very beautiful.”

My eyes widened in surprise.

“Beautiful?”

“Yeah.”

It seemed to be the first time Caesar had directly described something as beautiful.

“Is that an objective description?”

“Yes.
Everyone who sees it once will look back.
A very noticeable person.”

“Gender?”

“It’s my father.”

‘Father? You have a father?’

I swallowed the disrespectful words that almost went out unintentionally.

Everyone, of course, had a father.
That would be no exception, even for the non-human-like Caesar.

What’s surprising was that Caesar had a side that cared for his father.

I couldn’t understand how a person who loved his family and was loved by his family, had eyes swallowed in despair.

“Does he look like you?”

Caesar’s face contorted.

That is, of course, if they had a father-son relationship, but his eyes flashed with the slightest bit of anger and disgust.

He reacted sharply.

“We don’t look alike.
He is my foster father.”

“Ah…………”

“His eyes and hair are both green and he is very benevolent.”

“Yeah….
He definitely doesn’t look like you.”

‘Especially the benevolent part.’

When I nodded casually, he responded by copying me.

This, too, was a surprising reaction.

It was as if he properly knew now, his eyes looked youthful until he smirked a little.

Caesar seemed to love his father.

‘However………… Isn’t his reaction quite strange?’

I praised my father for being very beautiful, but I couldn’t admit that he didn’t look like me.

What could be the reason?

Maybe he hates himself that much, he doesn’t compare himself to the existence of his loving father.

‘…….You’re ridiculous.
You mentioned that your father was benevolent? I’m sure that you loved him.’

The simple reasoning darkened my mind.

“……How old is he?”

“His age doesn’t matter because he looks young.
Younger than he should.”

“Exactly how much younger?”

“Extremely.”

“…..”

To sum up, Leonos was the extremely youthful-looking and beautiful step-father of Caesar’s, with green hair and green eyes.

‘…………How can I find someone with this!’

The only objective information he gave was about his hair and eyes.

However, I couldn’t push him into giving more answers.

Considering that he’s his foster father, not his biological father, he may not have much information.

I don’t know about Caesar’s circumstances, but I didn’t want to rush into touching any of his scars.

I couldn’t afford to worry about his past which must have been full of blood at first sight.

“Well………”

I used my brain based on the information I received.

There was no person that came to mind.

Perhaps since Caesar’s past was not revealed, it was only natural.

“You don’t remember? It’s the most important thing for me.”

Caesar’s eyes, asking me to tell him that I know Leonos, were burdensome.

“I don’t know.”

Still, I didn’t avert his eyes.

I thought it through and there was no answer.

It wasn’t wrong to not know.

It was just Caesar’s resignation.

Caesar’s face sank as he stared into my eyes.
He realized that my words were true.

“…………Sorry.”

After a bit of hesitation, I spoke.

That’s because, for a moment, I thought that the original Nineina might have known.

Perhaps my apology was unexpected, his eyes shook briefly.
Then they calmed down.

“It’s not like that wasn’t unexpected.”

“What?”

The corners of his lips pulled up.
It was a smile blurred with sadness.

There was nothing more and nothing less than sadness in his darkened face.

Caesar mourned alone.

As it has been in the past and as it’ll continue to be in the future.

I turned away from him.

I couldn’t look at his face any longer.

I wouldn’t do anything and I couldn’t do anything.

I knew that it wouldn’t work even if I tried to comfort him right now.

To Caesar, I was a complete stranger.

He would never let a stranger into his shallow world.

I gave up talking and lowered my head.

“The letter……”

I had one thing left to do.