Nothing I Can Do

ying a prank on me.

I heard stirring behind me. I turned around and found a girl sitting under the tree staring at me. I don know why I didn see her at first. It was strange that I never saw her before. With golden brown hair and chocolate brown eyes anyone wouldve thought Wow… shes beautiful. Its certainly what I was thinking. I couldn describe her any other way for I was at a loss for words. She stood up, dusting off her skirt in the process.

”So, you
e here, ” She said. ”For a second there, I thought you weren going to show up. ”

She took a step closer. I gulped. I think she heard it because her lips curled into a smile. I saw how soft her lips were. Her smile got wider as she noticed where my eyes were. I forced myself to look away. She chuckled. It was such a nice laugh. Wait, what am I thinking!? She couldn possibly actually like me. Theres no way. Theres no way anyone would like me, I bitterly thought. Her beautiful, angelic, voice cut through my train of thoughts.

”I called you here to tell you my feelings but now that you
e here… ” She trailed off.

She seemed to be gathering her thoughts. There was a long pause afterward. With how silent it was everything was suddenly louder then it really was. I was wondering if I should break the silence when she spoke up.

”I-I love you! ” She blurted out.

It was so sudden and wait-did she just she loved me? I gasp. I was shocked. How could she possibly love me!? Her face was turning red from the sudden outburst.

”I-Im sorry, ” She stuttered ”I don want it to seem Im pushing my feelings onto you. ”

”No-no you
e not, ” I hurried to reassure her.

She stood there fidgeting. It was kinda cute the way she became a seductive fox and then turning into a shy bunny a second later.

”I don expect you to reply, but know this, ” She said. ” I WILL win your heart. ”

She ran off before I got the chance to reply. In a daze I left the school. I didn realize I was home until I stumbled through the door . I don even remembered how I got home. Then it all came buzzing back to me. I got asked out. I got asked OUT. I looked down to see my hands shaking. I clutch the front of my hoodie to steady them.

Im afraid. I am. Im afraid of letting people into my life only for them to leave. It hurts. It hurts so much. I stumbled to the head of the staircase, tripping on the first step, I landed hard. The urge to go to my room and curl up on my bed is so strong I can hardly breathe. It hurts to move. To breathe. Everything just hurts.

I steeled myself and with a shaky breath I climb up the stairs, slowly. I hissed as I went up and over a few steps.